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Blogging yet again...

Seems my creativity is on break for the time being. I can't think of anything witty or out of the ordinary for some reason. I hardly have days like this but it's starting be become the norm. I'm almost sick of being here (I think that may contribute to some of my lameness). When life seems blah I start to feel blah along with it. I don't want to live life as my associates do. There isn't anything to grasp anymore. They seem so lifeless and dull. I still have goals, hopes and dreams that I am still striving for. I have nothing else really keeping me here if I let them go. I can't look forward to the next dime bag and think that is "living". I don't know anyone who's at the poverty level that I'm at yet I don't toss in the towel and give up... I can't, I won't! Money is nice to have but I don't consume myself around it. I've been happier without it than with it, and without the full details - I've had alot of it a time or two.

I want to smile again for my accomplishments and It would be nice to associate with people who have similar goals. Hell, It would be nice to talk to people that have their own cars WITH a drivers license.

My rant for the day...



Quote of the day: I don't want someone who is "willing to change", I need someone who is already there.

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