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Bad night...

I am having a hard time getting the fuck on. I mean - I really think I'm out of my damn mind. WHY?... Because of a stupid ass guy I met on fucking line a lil less than two months ago. What the FUCK is really wrong with me? I don't even know him and I'm emotionally TWISTED up about this fuck! I have a really good idea why - because he said things to me that I have been waiting to hear all my life. Because he and I were on the same page (I thought). My word - I was obsessed with a guy for 24 years and even have his full name tattooed on me and was NEVER tore up about him like I am right now. I want to shake this but it's choking me. I sound so pathetic to myself so I can just imagine how this reads to someone on the outside looking in. But it's like I have no control over what is going on. I've always been in control of my emotions and everything pertaining to them. I've hid my tears with perfection it was a skill I had mastered but tonight I found myself crying uncontrollably and for WHAT? Because the guy that I met on line who seemed perfect "for me" just vanished without even a trace and again I'm standing here with the famous "WTF just happened here" look on my face. I dunno anymore - I really don't. I just know that a look at myself like a real idiot though.
Quote of the day: People fail people everyday - Some more than others

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