I have had the worse past few days I have had in a long long time. I think I wanna be single again - then I don't then I do... It sucks feeling this way. My depression has kicked into overdrive. Without a job and a place to call home it's beginning to really eat away at me from the insides out. I cry inside to the point it shows on the outside constantly and I can't find anything positive in much of anything lately. Matt is at 'work' all the time or when he's not there he's out fishing and I sit at Tinys house cleaning or doing whatever I can to pass time. Being in this relationship makes me feel like I'm single. I mean don't get me wrong I don't care to be with a person 24/7 but a few hours out of a day wouldn't hurt. He and I used to be a "cool couple" now it just seems like he has better things he'd rather do and none of them consist of me. So - me being me I'll have a 'talk' with him and let him know that he can leave at any time without having me go all freakish on him. I have been in this situation a few times to know what is going on. For crying out loud - I'm 37 years old and have never took the marriage plunge so I'm guessing there must be a good reason what that reason is... I don't have a clue.
Quote of the day: For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone.