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Worse day of my life...

I haven't been smiling lately. My heart has been torn into shreds - I found out that the love of my entire life has been doing me wrong. The pain that I feel can't even be placed into words. Right when I think I have cried my last tear more pour down my face. I hurt inside so bad that I wished I were in a coma. I never seen it coming and now all my dreams have been shattered. As I stand here with my hands down by my sides, tears rolling down my face and my heart destroyed I stare. I have the most wonderful friends anyone could ever have. They check in on me everyday and make sure that I am doing alright. Charlie comes over and takes me places and talks to me and tells me that it's gonna be ok. Tiny is wonderful too, Kyle, Timmy and my mom and dad have even made me realize just how much family and friends really mean. I just don't know how to pick up the pieces and start over... not right now anyway. I have been here before but it seems like it hurts more as I get older. I was going to marry him - I wanted to wake up next to him for the rest of my days. I never wanted to him to say goodbye.
Quote of the day: One day at a time

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