This has gotten to be a bit tiring to say the very least. I don't have a clue what needs to be done to my life in order to find someone who is as giving & as thoughtful as I am. Seems that I always find the takers and never the givers. I'm beyond sick of it by far. I can't "turn off" my thoughtfulness or I would have years ago. I always tend to think of others before myself. I'm always wanting to give to the someone in my life yet it never comes back to me. I struggle, I worry & I also never think of ME. I feel like a huge pile that is just 'here" to be picked from - when it's all gone I figure out a way to find more to give. I'm too damn caring I believe. This has GOT TO come to an end. I'm tired of being the ONLY one who thinks of ME. What a joke doesn't even come close to what I have dealt with.